Today was a bright blue sunny day. Cold wind, but nice Sun. Spring will be here soon and I cannot wait. Especially after drawing today’s card.
Today’s Self-centered Tarot Card is the 5 of Emotions from the Psychic Tarot Oracle Deck by John Holland. The card has beautiful colors and the wonderful geometry of the golden mean. You can tell the subject is deeply hurt. The pain in his eyes and brow is quite evident as is the covering of his heart chakra with his hands. Although he is now hurting, the Sun is there in the background. The sacred geometry pouring fourth from the man’s heart illustrate the great depth and meaning of events that have transpired.
This card makes me cry. It seems as though I have been struggling so much with my emotions lately. My father had a stroke a couple of years ago that really affected me deeply. Relating to him is quite different. It is hard to face the fact that my dad just cannot be there for me the way he used to be. The person I was romantically involved with at the time dumped me shortly thereafter. I believe that individual was either a divine catalyst or a twin flame. Either way the double whammy really did a number on me.
These events have left me with much the same countenance as the man in the card. Pensive, hurt, and knowing there is a depth here that cannot go unnoticed. Powerful growth is underway. Growth in my ability to love myself. It is not an easy task in this world. Especially after untold number of failed romantic relationships. All of them seeming to fail to bring me to this point. A point where I must speak my own truth and truly pay attention to another’s actions. Actions speak much louder than words.
John Holland says, “Honor your feelings. Only by healing and loving yourself — by letting go of the past — can you continue your journey. The suffering associated with this loss delivers profound wisdom and knowledge for your soul.” Indeed it has delivered me to myself, perhaps the greatest gift of all. Holland provides hope, “Focus all your positive energy on the good in your life and what you’re grateful for. Use your healing energy in this way and try not to focus on what you’ve lost, for new beginnings and happiness are just around the corner.”
Today was so beautiful. The clouds were like fluffy cotton balls arranged perfectly across the bright blue sky. Spring is upon us.
My Self-centered Tarot card of the day is X The World from the Sirian Starseed Tarot by Patricia Cori illustrated by Alyssa Bartha. The image seems simple, but there is quite a bit going on. There is movement everywhere from the atom, to the snake, to the Milky Way. The colors Bartha uses are perfect and you can see a mimicking of the snake’s head in the tail of the galaxy.
The last week has been tremendously emotional for me. All for purely egoic reasons, which really just means I need some me time. On the beach in the Sun, me time. The only one who is going to make it happen is me. It’s time to stop spending so much time in an office not being fulfilled. I have a deep need to be of real use in this world. That means not doing anything my heart isn’t into anymore.
Today’s card reinforces what I already know. Change is underway. Crystals and healing are my passion. I must follow the passionate path to really live and be in my fullness. Tomorrow is our local gemshow. I can’t wait to see what I find and what finds me!
Today is a weird President’s Day. I stayed home with the kids today, since there was no school. Before the kids woke up I was in the shower. By the time I was finished and went downstairs they were ready for pancakes, eggs, and bacon. After breakfast I was planning on going grocery shopping, joining my parents for lunch, and then going to see our counselor. Grocery shopping was put off until after the appointment, and then never happened. My parents and I never quite connected to meet for lunch. The counseling appointment ended with me feeling worse about things. Things are not bad, they are just hard. It is hard being a single parent. I strongly advise against becoming one unless it is your best alternative, which it was in my case. Nonetheless, it is not easy.
My Self-centered Tarot Card of the day is The Chariot from the Wizard’s Tarot from Corrinne Kenner, illustrated by John J. Blumen. The card comes as a bit of a surprise. I was not expecting to draw such an empowered woman on her high flying broom. My energy feels weak and weepy today. Much is happening in the image. The witch is in Egypt flying above the palm trees, pyramids and sphinx. There is a dog or coyote that seems to be her protector. Pi and the Moon frame her star adorned hat brim. It seems as though she is on a journey in search of something important. Her spirit guides protect her in her quest.
Kenner writes something that stays with me, “The band of her hat features shimmering glyphs of the astrological sign Cancer. The stars of the constellation Cancer are swept up in the bristles of the broom, too. Cancer is the sign of home and family life–but astral projection makes it possible to see the world without leaving home.” Now the reason this really sticks with me is that our counselor suggested a vacation. A vacation seems completely out of reach at this point in my life for a multitude of reasons.
My plan is to do some fun things around town with the kids for spring break. We’ll have a nice little staycation. I’ll do some astral travelling and see the world in my dreams. Luckily I have already seen the pyramids, but only from the air. Weird kind of like this card. Did I just connect timelines?!? February 2015, meet July 2001. I only saw the pyramids from the air, because I was en-route to New York City after contracting Malaria in Calcutta (Kolkata).
Really what I need to do is keep on writing about how to apply spiritual tools to our everyday lives. Tarot is one such tool. Meditation is probably the greatest key to unlocking our latent spiritual gifts. Crystals inspire me and make me feel good. I am excited to go to our local gem show this weekend. I may be offering some crystals and related items for sale on my website soon.
If you too lack the time, money, or energy to take a vacation by all means take an astral-vacation. I hope to start tonight!
Overnight my energy centers are open allowing universal love to flow forth, like overflowing pools. It feels so good. Beyond any description I could conjure with mere words. Words are so clumsy at describing feelings, especially source love.
My heart chakra opened up nearly three years ago. Now after much meditation, contemplation, love, and spiritual work it feels as though my body and spirit are vibrating as one. This activation feels as though I played no active role. It simply happened, because it is time.
This morning was a great morning. We all made it to school and work bright and early. Even work and school were easy. It’s always nice to have an easy day.
Today’s Self-centered card is Mountain, Strength from the Earth Magic Oracle Cards by Steven D. Farmer. The image on the card is a majestic rocky mountain glowing in the sunset. Gorgeous.
Mountains are magnificent beings. They are mysterious, cold, wild, dangerous, beautiful, inspiring, and full of awe. The Mountain whispers timeless tales into your ear with their cold windy breath.
The card reminds me to be still and rest in my fullness and be cognizant that, “When the mountain feels threatened in some way…” Farmer continues, “the strength exhibited can wreak havoc for all beings caught on its skin.”
My task is to maintain balance, remembering my strength has the potential to harm. My ego better not become enamored with the whole majestic beauty thing or there could be havoc to be wreaked.
It was warm outside this morning. The rain stopped today. It had been raining for three days. We had to be out the door early for an orthodontist appointment. Palate expanders aren’t much fun for the little ones. Lucky we are all happy now and heading out the door shortly for some frozen yogurt.
Today’s self-centered tarot card is Ten of Shields, Harvest from the Native American Tarot Deck by Magda and J.A. Gonzalez. The man in the image appears to be young. He stoops low to cut the stem of tobacco plants. They are ready for harvest.
The interpretation of this card seems pretty obvious, hard work, careful trending, and mother Earth provide a great harvest. The authors of the deck say,
“The essence of Harvest is new methods. A change in viewpoint brings knowledge, wisdom and rewards.”
More than ever my creativity is flowing almost to the point of lashing out when not released. This seems new, except that I have always been creative. My lifetime in “the system” educational, medical, banking, etc. killed my innate desire to have fun creating art, music, and poetry. I’m back. And it’s high time for new methods!
It was a foggy morning. My emotions were just as foggy as the morning. My body was in the midst of reacting to something. Am I feeling the fool (full) moon already? That was a Freudian slip of the fingers. Maybe I’m just a big cry baby.
Today is magically a two-card day. Guess the Universe knows I needed a pick-me-up after an emotional for no reason day. The self-centered tarot cards of the day are Three of Staves and Two of Cups from The Goddess Tarot by Kris Waldherr.
The woman in the first card is holding a stave in hand as a walking stick while she looks out to sea waiting for her ship to come in. Waldherr’s meaning, “An enterprise about to cumulate in success. The ability to transform goals into realistic action.” I say, maybe. Perhaps she is just a strong willed young woman who needed to get some air and is contemplating getting the hell out of there. Who really knows except her? At least she’s looking outward with her head held high!
In the second card, the woman sparkles in the moonlight, while the newly weds raise a cup to what they can achieve together. Notice the word can. One without the other is just one. Both together has great potential to be greater than the sum of its parts, literally. Luckily Waldherr saves me with her interpretation, “Integration of masculine and feminine aspects within oneself. An attraction that may become a serious relationship.”
While scrying after my meditation and prior to drawing the cards tonight, I saw many aspects of myself from many different space-time realities merge into the me here and now. Here’s to hoping for a hottie, just in case this situation turns out to be the latter. Cheers!