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A lot on my plate

It was cold this morning. The wind was blowing. Snow didn’t quite reach the valley, but blanketed the hills.

Today’s self-centered tarot card is 2 of Seas, Love from the Mythical Goddess Tarot by Sage Holloway with artwork from Katherine Skaggs.

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2 of Seas, Love

Two dolphins! I never thought of yin and yang as depicted in this card’s image. I want to go play in that pool a little closer to the waterfall. This card is the equivalent of the two of cups in traditional tarot. Typically depicted as two full and/or overflowing cups.

Holloway explains, “Two waterfalls flow into one, just as individuality forms the basis of true union.” It’s feeling a little Days of Our Lives here. Then she really kills it by eventually saying, “Open your heart fully to the relationship you deserve.”

Really? I guess. I have a lot on my plate right now. I’ll call you? Gotta run!

I liked the card more before I knew there were two waterfalls. My heart is open to a relationship, but it’s fully committed my children. My heart chakra is pretty open though, so who knows?

Note the astrological symbols in the card the plus person is Venus, while the sideways 69 is Cancer. Venus is the planet of love and Cancer is ruled by the Moon. The Moon rules emotion. Venus in Cancer is a happy time.

~Athena

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Pillar of Light

A few months ago, probably around summer solstice, one of my family members needed help. Not long before I had created a Spontaneous Crystal Grid. I did not have “an intention” for it after the grid came together. And that is exactly why it was ready when I needed it!

My intention was to shine a beacon of light so big my uncle could find his way home. During the activation I saw a huge beam of light coming down from above. The light was intense and so large it manifested in the distance. The landscape became enlightened and the night sky a beautiful violet.

My uncle made it home to safety within a matter of days. I had not seen him since my grandmother died over ten years ago. It is amazing what can happen when you put your heart into it.

Live your love!

~Athena

Happiness and Love

It’s summertime! It feels good. The sky is blue. There are hardly any clouds. The Sun just slipped from view on the Western horizon.

Today’s self-centered tarot card is Six of Chalices from the Sirian Starseed Tarot Deck by Patricia Cori illustrated by Alyssa Bartha. The two little angels remind me of my brother and I when we were a bit more angelic. They are so happy and full of love. The chalices dance around them like stars in the sky.

This card is wonderful! The element of water represents our emotions in astrology. The six full cups of water are a symbol of happiness and love. There is much to celebrate. Cori says the Six of Chalices indicates a “… shift in focus back to celebration of the innocence and trust of the decisions made at the soul level.” It does seem some blockage of energy has been removed from my collar bone. Some really heavy soul level or collectively owned stuck energy that needed transmutation was released in early April. My mother took the brunt of it. Sorry Mom!

The energy started easing up in May only to be met by Mercury retrograde, I guess to be rehashed one more time before finally moving forward. The new energy is here. It is time to step into it with open hearts and open minds.

I am going start by soaking up as much light as I can at the pool tomorrow!

~Athena

Time of Reflection

Today was a gorgeous spring day! The sky was blue with no clouds. It was so lovely I had to turn on the air conditioning upon returning from the park this afternoon.

Today’s Self-Centered Tarot card is Seven of Pentacles from the Wizard’s Tarot by Corrine Kenner, illustrated by John J. Blumen. The woman on the card appears to be waiting for the harvest to finish ripening. Kenner states, “When the Seven of Pentacles appears… you can probably expect some downtime-a brief pause while you wait, reflect, and hope for the best as all of your endeavors come to fruition.”
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The card is fitting for me right now. I have put in a great deal of effort designing my website, growing my audience, and now working on my crystal healing certification. I am willing to wait for the fruit to ripen as the process is the most important part for me, for my spiritual growth. Maybe I’ll help a few others grow with me. I am enjoying this time of reflection.

~Athena

Solar Eclipse Crystal Grid

My March 2015 Solar Eclipse Crystal Grid was set up a few days ago with the intention of providing loving support for healing and health. My $2 thrift store wooden serving dish holds my collection of tumbled stones. My flat drum sits right on top. It is the perfect crystal grid layout compete with light language inspired details. Synchronicity in its perfection.

This is my sacred space complete with Native American Tarot Card Deck and a lovely smelling candle. My parents have been under the weather since late last week. I chose the stones in this grid specifically to increase health and vitality as well as love.

The dark stones on top are green aventurine. They bring a sense of peace, harmony, and gentle strength. Green aventurine is quite pretty with shimmers of fuschite embedded in its quartz structure.

The pink stones are rose quartz. They brought up some old relationship issues needing transmutation. I attribute this to the eclipse effects. Rose quartz typically provides a sense of comfort and acceptance from a place of unconditional love. Which is actually what they did in this case as I was ready for it.

My parents met me for lunch today. It took them a little over a week to feel better. It only took two days for them to feel better after setting up the grid with intention to provide loving support for healing and health.

I believe the tumbled stones hidden under the drum greatly enhance the energy of the stones on top. Crystals are amazing!

~Athena

Embracing Joy

This morning came too soon. The sunrise was nice. Even the chem trails in the Eastern sky were pretty in their unnatural way. Everyone was in a good mood.

Today’s self-centered tarot card is the Ten of Cups from The Goddess Tarot by Kris Waldherr. Wow,  what a great card! The image of the rainbow with the ten cups in an arch as well. The water reflecting the cups and the rainbow making a circle embracing joy. The land is encircled in the background as well.

The Universe is showing me that I am doing exactly what I need to do. The crystal healing course I am taking is giving me a boost. There are many others with similar interests in the class. We are all pursuing our interests in ways as unique as we are. The public is also interested in crystal healing.

Yesterday some women at a local antique dealer were interested when I bought several crystals and did not need the tags identifying the crystals. I explained that I am a crystal healer and know the names. Soon we were chatting and they asked if I taught classes. Just a few days prior to that I downloaded the forms to sign up to teach a community education class.

Just when it seems nothing is working,  things always manage to change. My goals in life continue to evolve as I do. The rainbow always symbolizing hope and the ten full cups abundance.

~Athena

Loving Yourself

Today was a bright blue sunny day. Cold wind, but nice Sun. Spring will be here soon and I cannot wait. Especially after drawing today’s card.

Today’s Self-centered Tarot Card is the 5 of Emotions from the Psychic Tarot Oracle Deck by John Holland. The card has beautiful colors and the wonderful geometry of the golden mean. You can tell the subject is deeply hurt. The pain in his eyes and brow is quite evident as is the covering of his heart chakra with his hands. Although he is now hurting, the Sun is there in the background. The sacred geometry pouring fourth from the man’s heart illustrate the great depth and meaning of events that have transpired.
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This card makes me cry. It seems as though I have been struggling so much with my emotions lately. My father had a stroke a couple of years ago that really affected me deeply. Relating to him is quite different. It is hard to face the fact that my dad just cannot be there for me the way he used to be. The person I was romantically involved with at the time dumped me shortly thereafter. I believe that individual was either a divine catalyst or a twin flame. Either way the double whammy really did a number on me.

These events have left me with much the same countenance as the man in the card. Pensive, hurt, and knowing there is a depth here that cannot go unnoticed. Powerful growth is underway. Growth in my ability to love myself. It is not an easy task in this world. Especially after untold number of failed romantic relationships. All of them seeming to fail to bring me to this point. A point where I must speak my own truth and truly pay attention to another’s actions. Actions speak much louder than words.

John Holland says, “Honor your feelings. Only by healing and loving yourself — by letting go of the past — can you continue your journey. The suffering associated with this loss delivers profound wisdom and knowledge for your soul.” Indeed it has delivered me to myself, perhaps the greatest gift of all. Holland provides hope, “Focus all your positive energy on the good in your life and what you’re grateful for. Use your healing energy in this way and try not to focus on what you’ve lost, for new beginnings and happiness are just around the corner.”

~Athena

More Here Now

This morning was foggy and cold. I meditated briefly before taking a shower. I should have meditated longer. My mood was just like the astrological weather, Mars cold in the fog who knows where doing who knows what for no reason conjunct Neptune in Pisces.

Mars in my natal chart is in Aries, the fire sign, and opposite Pluto, transformation, in Libra, the sign of balance. Basically that means I have quite a passionate fiery temperament. So, now after a few days of being in this fog, I’m ready to be out! Mercury also went retrograde today. So, I applied for a job. I have to take this Mars aggression out on something.

The tarot card I drew today took me aback a little. The subject’s hair in this one is a real doozy. Today’s self-centeredly drawn tarot card is Queen of Wands from the Wizard’s Tarot by Corrine Kenner illustrated by John J. Blumen.
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The image on the card is that of a surreal Medusa. Her blue skin glows in the warmth of the contained fire on either side of her and in her wand. The Moon suggests the woman’s deep emotional connection and state of illumination. Kenner says of the queen, “She is sinewy and strong, willful and dynamic, confident and self-assured.” These are qualities I very much admire. Today I feel tired, weak, emotional, and yet I feel this desire deep within propelling me toward growth.

It seems this card has come to remind me, I am fiery and passionate. Even though this fog has me feeling unsure about my emotions, Neptune has been working with Mars to cut through some dense nebulous stuff in my heart chakra.

There is a powerful cleansing occurring on many levels within. My cells perceive new energy and are rapidly incorporating it into physical healing and nourishment, like another type of nutrient. There is a simultaneous release of old energy and a freeing of my soul to be more here now in the physical. It is painful and it feels so blissfully good. It feels like a great soothing all encompassing love is filling in those spaces left open.

Tomorrow I am going to meditate longer. It really sets the tone for a good day, when done properly.

~Athena

Aware and in Control

The sunrise this morning was a gorgeous deep orange-red. The Moon was hanging above the southern horizon highlighting the day’s beauty.

Today’s self-centered tarot card is from the Goddess Tarot Deck by Kris Weldherr. Today was another two card day. Four of Swords fell out of the deck. Behind it was X Fortune, Lakshmi.

The woman sleeping with swords above her at first disturbed me until I realized she was aware and in control of them, even in the sleep state, indicating great strength. Waldherr states, “The four swords are suspended above her protecting her from the outside world.”

The next card, X Fortune, Lakshmi is gorgeous. She rides on the back of a beautiful bird with her twin flame, Vishnu. They survey the valley below and abundance flows.

Things aren’t perfect in my life, but they’re pretty damn good.

~ Athena

Change is Good

The day started off foggy. The Sun came out about lunchtime. It hurt my eyes for a moment. It has been many days since I last saw the blue sky. I am appreciative.

Today’s self-centered tarot card is 5, Financial & Material Changes from the Psychic Tarot Oracle Deck by John Holland.

The image on the card seems to indicate a split. The index finger and thumb are in splendid warm tones while the ring and pinky fingers are bathed in cool tones. The card seems to indicate divorce even though the ring is typically on the left hand in western cultures.

The number five represents change in numerology. It also represents the kind of change you find in your pocket, coins. Think pentagram on the suit of coins in the tarot. Apparently I can look forward to possibly disturbing changes that I need to keep my chin up about. Those changes are likely financial, and could include divorce as a partner’s money is part of our own financial well being.

The changes I foresee happening including harnessing my creativity via my index finger and thumb to create new opportunities for greater freedom.

Change is good. The kind that happens in our lives and the kind I find in my pocket!

~ Athena

Happiness all Around

Today is a good day. It snowed lastnight. Not too much, a couple of inches. My kids are on Christmas Vacation. We are home together this week. I am glad. They are growing so quickly. It’s nice to have now to share.

Today’s card is 10, Happy Family from the Native American Tarot by Magda and J.A. Gonzalez. The image on the card depicts the Native American family life. The mother is teaching the young child, while the father entertains the baby.

My life has been a non-stop rush of Christmas and deliveries. Things are coming together nicely. It seems like years of hard work are now manifesting abundance. Not that they did not before. It’s just easier now. It’s hard when kids are young to maintain balance.

The card depicts the true role of the young mother. Teaching while working. It’s tough being mom’d all the time and still having to get shit done.

As children grow they become more independent. The challenges of their younger years are offset by their bursting into beautiful considerate young people with brilliant ideas and eyes.

It’s nice now that my kids are in elementary school, I am able to take more regular and more sizable chunks of time for my own personal pursuits, like this blog. All while my children pursue their own interests. Happiness all around!

~ Athena

Magnetic Energy

Intense magnetic energy flooded my life for several days leading up to solstice. Incoming frequencies travel to Earth by way of Coronal Mass Ejections (CMEs), comets, and Gamma Rays to name a few modes of travel. The new energy is easing the burden of shedding my old ways.

Some of my crystals called me to action. Just when I thought my phantom quartz pendant was a dud, it suddenly started interacting with me. It is helping me clear the residual yuck in my heart chakra.

My Self-centered tarot card of the day is King of Vessels, Heron from the Wild Wood Tarot by Mark Ryan and John Matthews illustrated by Will Worthington. The Heron is one of my animal spirit guides. Heron is a thinker, always reflective and waiting patiently for the right moment to take action. The deck’s authors say Heron is, “The guardian of many esoteric secrets, it is said to stand at the gateway between life and death and to act as mediator on the soul’s journey to the Celtic otherworld and reincarnation.”

I am at the precipice of some new way of being, a gateway. The energy is feminine and loves unconditionally. It attaches to your biophotons and changes your life as you live through your heart chakra.

My life is overwhelmingly busy. The new energy is increasing the hectic factor. The only way I’m staying in the flow is by concentrating on what needs to be done right NOW. And feeling my way through with my heart. Right now, I need to relax and watch a movie.

~ Athena

Global Community

It was hard to wake-up this morning. I sat briefly in meditation, grateful for another day. Each day is beautiful and unique like a snow flake.

Today’s card is Green Man, Synergy from Earth Magic Oracle Cards by Steven D. Farmer. This card is both spot on and wonderful. The image in this card really is what you make of it. The foliage feels alive. The playful masculine energy is both fun and intriguing.

Today was a great day! Work was fun. We all basically had a half-day off to celebrate our company. I won a Google Chromecast. Yesterday I decided that was the prize for me.

Maybe that brief meditation this morning had something to do with being “the lucky winner” today. Actually, I just knew already. You know, when you just “know.” Last week I almost bought one, but thought I better wait until after the party.

Life is so easy when you let it flow. Things came so easily today. From my prize to my popcorn to my ride. Literally popcorn and a ride came to me at the exact prefect moment.

So contrary to what is happening in the greater scheme of things. My mother told me there had been a massacre at a school where 135 children were killed. 

I have not seen any media on this yet. But already I know an entire community is devastated. Not just the city or nation in which it took place. Our entire global community is witnessing an atrocity. Please everyone stop hurting each other. Those children deserved to let their light shine!

There is space for all of us, and all of our beliefs. Hurting each other just makes it harder to be happy. There is plenty of abundance on this planet. Let’s simply share our abundance and be at peace. We are smart and compassionate. We can do it together!

The micro-macro mirror is an interesting thing. We are one planet, let’s act accordingly.

~ Athena

The World

Today is Friday, December 12, 2014. The sunrise was gorgeous. The rain came in the afternoon. We enjoyed a visit with friends tonight. It was fun. We laughed a lot. It’s still raining.

The Self-centered tarot card of the day is XXI The World, Gaia from The Goddess Tarot Deck by Kris Waldherr. I like the image on the card. But, what does this card really mean?

The World is a very big place. I have traveled all the way around it once, and to the other side on three separate occasions. I have an appreciation for the immensity of our planet, and the luxury of modern air travel.

We live in the midst of the greatest beauty. I will always be in awe of our mountains, deserts, beaches, oceans, and volcanoes. Not to mention the sky! Day and Night.

Still I wonder what is the World?

According to Waldherr the card means, “Experiencing connection with the universe. A sense of expansion and hope.” Maybe. I think the generally accepted meaning is that you have the World in your hands.

The World is whatever we want to make it for ourselves, while balancing the fact that we share our Earth with one another. Make it happy. Smile with your eyes and live through your heart. Bring your dreams to fruition! Recycle.

~ Athena

Transmuting the Old

The incoming energies are very strong today. They started coming in yesterday evening. Initially I thought my body and mind were exhausted from a busy quarter-end at work this week.

It’s so much more than that!

Love is pouring into the cells of my body. My heart chakra is vibrating. My proverbial cup is overflowing.

Accepting the love is difficult at times. It seems like it should be so easy. It seems these new energies are kicking out the residual darkness in my being. Facing the deep dark pains takes a lot of love.

As always I am thankful for this abundance of unconditional love to make the process easier.

Transmuting the old for the best of the Universe and all involved!

~ Athena

Voluntary Exchange

It has been foggy for about the last week. It burns off as the day progresses. This evening the sky was the most beautiful deep dark blue. No words in my vocabulary to portray it’s beauty.

Today’s card is quite interesting to me, mostly because of what happened prior to drawing it. This is a new deck and fun to shuffle! No cards were coming up, so I just kept shuffling. My mind wandered to thoughts of a past relationship.

I quickly realized and told myself not to go there and shook it off.  I asked the cards to work with me for the best of the Universe and all involved. Then I realized the card could not come up until the deck was cleared. So, I energized the cards and knocked on them three times. I cleared my mind and asked spirit what I need to know.

I drew 6, The Forest Lovers from the Wild Root Tarot by Mark Ryan and John Matthews with card illustrations by Will Worthington. The image on card says it all.

Ryan and Matthews add depth, “True love comes from joining of two polar energies to create a third force or consciousness. It is an interchange of energy and passion, not the surrender or domination of either but a voluntary exchange of will power and respect.”

Seeing the ribbons tying this couple together and to the tree immediately brought me to an emotional state and back to a powerful dream in which I was being married atop a rocky outcrop underneath an ancient  tree. My lover placed a yellow ribbon on my finger. It immediately spun out in all directions astounding me. That is the first and last dream I have ever had about getting married. After that vision I had to center myself with some creative breathing techniques.

Strange how spirit works. Am I not done with that relationship?

~ Athena

Balanced within

The sunrise this morning was beautiful, but I hardly noticed it. The roads are icy and slick. It was definitely a stay in the now kind of drive today.

Today’s self-centered tarot card is VI Love, Venus from The Goddess Tarot by Kris Waldherr. Wow, I really was not expecting this card today. I felt both distracted and ineffective at work. My thoughts have been concentrated on my youngest daughter today.

The image on the card does not represent maternal love. A decadent woman adorned in red robes with flowing blonde hair lounges in opulence as her come hither look draws the viewer in. Kris Waldherr describes the card’s meaning as, “Artistic creativity. Sexuality. Integration of the masculine and feminine. A new, important relationship.”

My creativity is definitely flowing. I have been writing and doing a little artwork. I feel sexy, but that isn’t translating into anything at the moment. Definitely I am more balanced within myself than I have been in a while. An important new relationship? If so, that’s coming out of nowhere.

~ Athena

Reaching out

Today was a nice warm day. This evening was beautiful. The hills were lit up before a bright blue sky, while flames of red leaves burst like fireworks.

Today’s card is Love, Compassion from the Earth Magic Oracle Cards by Steven D. Farmer. The card features two hands reaching out to each other over a heart.

My heart has grown exponentially in the last couple of years. My heart was like the Grinch’s, ten sizes too small. My heart chakra vibrates in bliss at will.

Steven D. Farmer reiterates, “All wounds stem from the illusion of separation from Source and all of Creation. The route to healing this wound is through cultivating love and compassion for every being on this planet, including yourself.” Powerful indeed. Let’s take it further, for every being in the Universe. We are all part of it, together.

~ Athena

It hurts a little

The Solar eclipse energies are growing in strength. Hello Scorpio. Please don’t hurt me. I’ll just be here absorbing the light into my being. It feels good. It hurts a little, but in a good way. Like what I imagine a little seed feels when cracking through that final membrane and becoming a seedling. There is no choice. It has grown too big to be contained any longer!

The Sun’s light is growing stronger. It is brighter than it used to be. No longer yellow, but bright white opalesence. I see it in the clouds as much as I feel it vibrating throughout by body’s cellular structure. Is this what it feels like to evolve?

Thank goodness Venus was conjunct the Sun as it was eclipsed by the Moon at 0° Scorpio two days ago. It brought the love of my soul to its depths. Deep pain released and comforted compassionately with beautiful vibrating photons dancing inside.

~ Athena

Quite the opposite

Today started out in typical fashion. The alarm either did not go off or I turned it off instead of hitting snooze. Needless to say my boss had to have a talk with me about my timeliness, which neither of us enjoyed.

Maybe my card picker is off today. I’m not sure why today’s card is Two of Vessels: Union from the Native American Tarot Deck by Magda and J.A. Gonzalez. My idea of union is one where the whole is greater than the sum of its parts. My relationships generally end up being quite the opposite. The Union card, I take with a grain of salt.

The image on this card is not anything I am expecting today. It’s not because of the cartoonish artwork. The image a man and a woman, coming together is so limiting. Maybe my old beliefs about it are too limiting. I’m really enjoying having that complete freedom being in a relationship just does not have.

It’s not because I do not want love in my life. It’s just because that tide is out right now. You cannot force things. You must wait patiently. Take your chance with everything you’ve got when it comes!

~ Athena

A Red Dress

My eyes itch. I’m tired. I just need to write. The last year I have been in a cocoon. Feeling my body change from the inside out on a cellular level. The frequency is a loving, blissful flowing electrical charge.

Things went well at work today. Amazingly well, it happens every once in a while. Today’s did not surprise me much when I drew it this morning. There were way too many good days in a row there for a while. Not that I really think any card is bad. The greatest learning comes from the greatest struggles.

Today’s card is the Two of Staves from The Goddess Tarot deck created by Kris Waldherr. The image on the card is that of a young girl looking off into the distance. It appears as though she is charting her future. The staves are budding new leaves. There is promise. She is wearing a red dress. There is a fence marking the boundary between now and future creations. One stave is on the other side of the fence and stuck in the ground. The other is in her left hand supporting and grounding her.

Kris Waldherr describes the suit of staves “channel(s) energy to areas where it can encourage growth.” And of the girl in the image Kris states, “Dressed in a red gown-the color of vigor and beginnings–the woman decides to bring her ideas into the world. Her confidence and talent assures success.” Very interesting indeed.

A new beginning has indeed arrived. I’m not sure what it brings. I know one thing. I am creating it. And I have experience! I haven’t travelled around the world for nothing.

~Athena